To the girl who doubts herself

The other day I was really down and gloomy, I should say I was being too hard on myself.

I sort of felt unworthy as a wife and a mom.(“girl struggles”) Sometimes Satan plays with

my thoughts and tries to  plan silly things in my head. In the midst of my deep thoughts

my phone rang, it was Chris (my husband). When he is at work he checks in with me

around lunch time every day. He sensed some kind of sadness in my voice and asked

what was wrong. I told him how I was not having a great morning because I let these

silly thoughts get to me and take over my mind. He listened to my “pity party” and

patiently said:

“Baby, don’t forget who is in control! I am pretty sure God brought you to this place for a

reason. Don’t doubt yourself! And remember, fear is Satan fearing you are on the right


-“ Fear is Satan fearing you are on the right track! “ –

Wow !!!….

My outlook totally just shifted right then.

2 Timothy 1:7

“ For God gave us not of fear but of power and love and self-control”

Have you ever doubted yourself? You thought God put you in a position where He

wanted you to be, then some tiny voice in your head said:

“No, you are not capable!  You are unworthy! Your life is a joke! You are too weak to

come through this! …etc “

This doubt and fear gotten to you and holding you back. Don’t give up girl! If you already

taken it to God and  prayed about it and it’s confirmed you are done. Don’t  second guess

the Father! He  put you there for a reason and honestly this fear is from the dark side

trying to weigh you down. Disadvantage you from reaching your goal and purpose.

It is actually a confirmation when you fear something, that you just might be on the right

track. Remember this sister, your faith can move mountains and your doubt can create


” Your faith can move mountains and your doubt can create them.”

Mind blowing transformation for the Christ loving chick

I am super excited for all the things I look forward to as a mom, as a wife, as a blogger

and as a Christ loving chick with the sisterhood!  Today I am especially thankful for the

changes this past year.  2017 was life changing in so many ways for me!  The most

significant by far was learning to let go of the old things and let Jesus truly transform my

life.  I finally found my voice through Him.  For a while I was so lost and miserable.  I

was brought to Jesus through the church but like most I did not know the next step.  

Where was I to go next?  I wanted to change but it was like I wanted someone else to do

the dirty work for me.  

Let’s face it, we love instant everything.  I wanted instant change, instant results, instant

solutions in an instant world right?  I just got this amazing thing called an Instant Pot for

my birthday from my dear mother in law.  I can cook, fry, and bake in this pot all in

record time.  I am able to cook a beef stew in this pot in twenty minutes! I mean it is

pretty cool!  So in this instant world of mine I wanted a change.  How silly I was!  

Looking back now I see the importance of going through the motions and freely choosing

God and His everlasting love.  It is important to find our voice in the midst of the storm

and know what we stand for.

The  most beautiful picture was painted when I chose hope and faith to get through my

forever going endless cycle of not getting anywhere.  Stewing in my self pity I was going

nowhere. It was a miserable place where I never want to be again. It was like I knew

Jesus, but I could not hear His voice. Has this ever happened to you?

When we are stuck in Satan’s trap we fail to receive guidance from the Holy Spirit.  We

put invisible blinders on that block us from seeing the Light.

When we accept Jesus Christ our spirit is instantly renewed but our mind has to be

transformed and purified.

Philippians 1:18-20 New American Standard Bible (NASB)

18 What then? Only that in every way, whether in pretense or in truth, Christ is proclaimed; and in this I rejoice.

Yes, and I will rejoice, 19 for I know that this will turn out for my deliverance through your prayers and the provision of the Spirit of Jesus Christ, 20 according to my earnest expectation and hope, that I will not be put to shame in anything, but that with all boldness, Christ will even now, as always, be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death.

Please, read the verse again and note the statement “I will”.  Maybe read it out loud a few

times, it is so powerful! It is my very motivation for the upcoming year. I won’t just talk

about doing these things, “I will” really live it out every day.  I love how Paul lays out the

very essence of how to live as a follower of Jesus Christ.  Proclaiming Christ and rejoicing

in Him is the key to it all.

I carefully built my own little prison. I have to intentionally turn away from all

distractions and choose Jesus over and over again to break free of this prison that I so

carefully built.  Today I am here to encourage you to do the same.  In 2018 keep your eyes

on God!  Go where He leads you and choose Jesus over and over again every single day!

Please Read

Philippians 4:8-9 New American Standard Bible (NASB)

8 Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is [a]lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things. 9 The things you have learned and received and heard and seen in me, practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.

My declaration for 2018

I will” live intentionally

I will” choose Him daily

I will” Love my sisters

I will” love my neighbor

I will” live loved  

I will” dwell in the spirit of the Lord.

I Hope you will too!



Let’s set our motion into transformation

I believe God has spoken to me on this topic for the past couple of weeks, so I am going to share what’s on my heart.

In the midst of all the craziness of the holidays, I feel like we forget the whole point of Christmas. I said this before, this year I am trying to focus very much on the true reason for the season.

We have been watching all source of Christmas movies, but how we get closer to Christmas we watch more of a Christian movies, like Christmas Veggie tales, Son of God,The Bible…etc.

Somehow focusing more on the Bible and surrounding ourselves with the true meaning of Christmas, Santa fades away a little and this little tiny baby in the manger starts to become our main focus.

My son started to pray for Jesus on the cross every night, and my daughter who is four years old “reads “her Bible every night before she goes to bed. I asked her last night what she was doing in her bedroom, and she just looked at me with a beautiful big smile on her face and said : “I am reading the Gospel. ”

Tears came to my eyes, looking in disbelief, overwhelmed with proud feelings…What a special moment!

If you think your children are too little to understand the message of Jesus Christ, I hate to say this, but you are deadly mistaken. The innocence of a child also means they can sense spiritually and emotionally. If we dismiss the truth and resist God’s promise, it will result in forgetting God presence. We can attend all the Bible studies, read all the books about the Bible and yet still feel unwanted, rejected, unloved, feeling like a failure.

We know the apostles witnessed many miracles that Jesus performed, but they did not internalize them. Therefore these expressions did not transformed their life at the time.

Read Mark 6:30-52, but most importantly look at Mark 6:50-52.

Mark 6:50-52New International Version (NIV)

“50 because they all saw him and were terrified. Immediately he spoke to them and said, “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.51 Then he climbed into the boat with them, and the wind died down. They were completely amazed, 52 for they had not understood about the loaves; their hearts were hardened.”

Their hearts was hardened because they did not make a true transformation.How sad … I don’t know about you, but I do not want to miss out on the truth! I will fight for it until my last breath on this Earth! Because without Jesus my life is waisted, therefore my children’s lives will be wasted.

I don’t want to be stuck in the prison of “what if’s” and “could haves”. I want to live now and drink from the unlimited source of knowledge of the truth.

So let’s saturate ourselves in 2018 in the word of God, so we can live! Let’s not only have access to the word of God, but let’s make a transformation by applying His word and set it into motion!

Lysa TerKeurst encourages us in the book called Uninvited to follow 3 steps:

1; Get your information:

Have I sought out God’s truth regarding my situation?

2; Application:

Have I apply this truth?

3; Set into motion our transformation, instead of conformation.

Do I now own this truth as a personal revelation from God to use it in a future situations?

I pray you too can make a transformation and live like you are loved fully and unconditionally!

Do not conform to the everyday lies, that Satan wants you to believe!

You are more than your failures and mistakes!You are more than enough!

Written by Csilla Nelson

Recourse from the book Uninvited by Lysa TerKeurst.


Testing times

If you ever wonder about testing times, I can assure you, it happens to all of us! Test comes without warning in many forms.

Sometimes it comes from a direction you never dreamed of, sometimes it comes from small things, and sometimes it can come from bigger things. Many of us has the question why this is happening to me and not someone else?

Why are we struggling with certain things and for others it seems like easy breezy?

Just when I was on the edge and ready to give up, God reviled it to me the question is “what” not “why”…

Instead of asking why my circumstances are the way how they are, I can change my outlook and ask the question WHAT can I do to prevent or to fix it.

Look at what the Bible says about testing times.

1 Peter 1:6-9Holman Christian Standard Bible (HCSB)

6 You rejoice in this,though now for a short time you have had to struggle in various trials 7 so that the genuineness of your faith—more valuable than gold, which perishes though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory, and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ. 8 You love Him, though you have not seen Him. And though not seeing Him now, you believe in Him and rejoice with inexpressible and glorious joy, 9 because you are receiving the goal of your faith, the salvation of your souls.

The character of our faith shows our belief system.

If this results in praise and glory and honor in the light of Jesus we find joy knowing our goal is eternal life with Him.

Circumstances will bring us closer to Him, we just have to let in the fullness of God. Because He can use the bad and turn it into something good and new. We just have to trust in him blindly out of pure faith.

That’s how we can live true to him and his word.

About your Marriage

I am no expert on marriage, or to tell you how to live your life, but I may be able to help you shed some light on things that you may be struggling  with as right now as a couple.

We are living in a world that will encourage you to  give up before you ever even tried to save your marriage and offer an easy way out of the problem.

We all have issues we bring into our marriage at the beginning, and if it is  unsolved can cause serious damage to our relationship. Things starts to pile up on the top of each other and becomes too much to handle on our own. That’s when people get disconnected and think the “grass is greener on the other side”. I mean society is setting us up for failure within our marriage. The message  we receive offers no self-discipline, no honesty and definitely not encouraging  to live Christ like.

So what can you do when everything seems to fall apart and you just don’t know what to do anymore? You grew cold in your relationship and there is nothing left to offer anymore. Well, that is the time to start praying. It sounds simple and  easy but for some of us it is very hard to do. Just lay down your burdens and let Jesus carry it for you!

Whenever we  give our hurt and pain to God, He brings us healing and hope through prayers and scripture. We can’t do these things on our own, we need Jesus to bring peace, hope, and love.

“Come to Me, all of you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”

– Matthew 11:28

The best thing to do is not only pray for our spouse, but also pray God would place a desire in our heart that is based on Jesus and what he accomplished on the cross.

You probably say: “Wait…what??? That has nothing to do with me and my marriage!”

Actually it does, that is the key! He died for us because of his unconditional love. The desire in his heart was to give us the opportunity to redemption, to lay ourself down and born again in his love, so he can give us a new life! A new life! You get that?It gives me chills to even saying this!

He is able to do that for you and me! Through the cross anything is possible! So don’t ever give up hope! Yes, ask for guidance but first ask him to cleans you, forgive you for your mistakes and wrong doings. Ask him to give you a good and loving heart toward your spouse. I know, that is the last thing you want to do at this moment, because you are angry and hurt. And how would you be able to love another person when they hurt you like that?…I get it, tell you what…you just can’t….You don’t have that ability. Jesus does, his unconditional love does. So pray, pray like never before! Pray for you and pray for your husband, pray for strength and most importantly ask to have the heart of Jesus! Do you believe that he died for you at that very moment on the cross?

If so ask him to begin a work within you and your spouse and take the first step toward healing. Change begins from within you and then the rest will change in Gods perfect timing. You may ask: “Well what about him(your spouse)? Shouldn’t he change and do all these things? Because after all he is the one who caused my heartache?”

This has to be addressed by God not you. Remember? You gave it all to Him…

” And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.” – Philippians 4:19

Don’t give me wrong, in our fourteen years of marriage we have been through rough patches that almost ended up dividing us forever. But with God’s grace and through Jesus   Christ we can love each other unconditionally. By all means we are not perfect and we struggle with every day life  like most people do. But we have this hope that never fades…

I use to not like this photo(above) of us, because I thought it wasn’t “passionate ” enough. Than I realized it portrays our relationship perfectly. We have this strong and deep love for one another  that is completed with our devotion to Christ.

So I am here to tell you, don’t ever give up! God can restore your relationship and heal your heart. There is hope through the blood of Jesus Christ.  And if your marriage can not   be restored, you know you did the best you could to your ability and now You are in the right place with Him on your side no matter what comes your way.

photo credit by Margie Rockmen

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I hope you never have to deal with issues like depression in your young life, and I pray if you ever do you will find your way out of it through Christ.

How does depression happen?

When you start feeling down and everything you do is difficult because you feel hurt.

When everything seem to go south and you just cannot seem to find your way out of it,you are feeling tiered all the time and sluggish, it might be a bit of depression you are battling with.

Depression can make you feel like you have the weight of the world on your shoulders and you have to carry it all alone and you just can’t do it anymore because you are exhausted spiritually, mentally and physically. You are burned out and you just don’t have the answer to anything.Darkness takes over your life and everything is gloomy.

So how can you find your way back to the light?

Step1. Get to the root of the cause   

Psalm 143:3 New American Standard Bible

“3 For the enemy has persecuted my soul;
He has crushed my life to the ground;
He has made me dwell in dark places, like those who have long been dead.”

Ok, so stop for a minute and see what could cause you these feelings.Sometimes there  is no reason at all, and that could be a sign of spiritual warfare.This battle goes on all the time and could affect your personality and mood.

Step 2. See what the depression is doing to you

“4 Therefore my spirit is overwhelmed within me;
My heart is appalled within me.” – Psalm 143:4

Your response becomes hopeless.You begin to believe that there is no way out of this darkness,like its vicious circle that never ends.

Step 3. What makes you feel good? Recognize it.

“5 I remember the days of old;
I meditate on all Your doings;
I muse on the work of Your hands.” – Psalm 143:5

Think about the good things that God has done for you. Honestly it is hard to see further than our depression sometimes, but believe me when I say this there is someone out there who loves you. That might not be the person you want to be loved by, but don’t ever believe  no one loves you! Don’t believe that there is nothing good in your life! There is! Your family, your friend(s),think about the good times you have had. Think about that warm feeling you had during your happiest moments. Think about the good things.

Step 4. Thank God anyway

“6 I stretch out my hands to You;
My soul longs for You, as a parched land.” – Psalm 143:6

You see, sometimes all these things are happening to us so we can reach out to Jesus and find Him in the middle of the storm. I know it sounds crazy to you, but if you just say a prayer to Him and ask Him to fill you up and help you get through  things, He will make it happen.Thank Him for the storm, because you find Him in the midst of it all.

Step 5. Ask God to help you

“7 Answer me quickly, O Lord, my spirit fails;
Do not hide Your face from me,
Or I will become like those who go down to the pit.”-Psalm 143:7

When you are so out of breath and you feel like there is nothing to hold on to, and you are sliding down on this slippery slop, you are loosing control. Ask God to catch you when you are falling into the deep. He will send you the Holy Spirit to comfort you, to care for you and strengthen you so you can hold on to Him while things turn around for you.

Step 6. Listen to Him 

“8 Let me hear Your loving kindness in the morning;
For I trust in You;
Teach me the way in which I should walk;
For to You I lift up my soul.” – Psalm 143:8

At this point you already gave it all to Him, so you must believe in your heart that God will pull you through. This is where the real work begins. You have to trust that He knows what’s  best for you, and sometimes the best is to let go of things that are holding you down and making you feel so terrible about yourself. You must ask Jesus to guid you  and give you direction every step of the way.

Step 7. Pray HARD

“9 Deliver me, O Lord, from my enemies;
I take refuge in You.” – Psalm 143:9

You can ask God for help and He will protect you. But you must keep your eyes on Him and stop amplifying your problems.

Step 8. Ask God to guid you and make wise decisions

” 10 Teach me to do Your will,
For You are my God;
Let Your good Spirit lead me on level ground.” – Psalm 143:10

Our growth will never end so we constantly need to ask God to teach us and keep us grounded.So many times we get caught up in our problems and we focus on that, instead of seeking God for guidance.

Step 9. Look forward to serve Him

“11 Lord, let me live
so people will praise you.
In your goodness
save me from my troubles.” – Psalm 143:11

So now you can really concentrate on God to use you and your troubles to reach out to others and share the Gospel. Your purpose becomes so simple, and everything becomes clear, you were made to have this relationship with Him and receive His love so you can share who He is and what He has done for you, and what he is able to do for others.

Step 10. Worship

Are you thankful He is able to help you?

You see, not only to help you but through your testimony help others. We were created to  love one an other and rely on Him and defeat our enemies.Worship Him in everything you do and your outlook will change shortly after.

I pray this 10 steps will help you defeat these demons and let Jesus step in and love you like you always longed to be loved.

Written by Csilla Nelson

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